Hush! It’s Secret..

Dear Diary,

I hope you are well my dear friend. If you may ask the same, I am feeling utmost pleasure at present too. Thinking about whom I should say about what I have felt, there is no one more perfect than you. It’s about my secret admirer. Yes, there is something about him I can’t quite put my hand on but I am pretty sure he had fallen hard for me. On different occasions, he had proven his feelings for me obscuring his actions from others but it has caught my eyes recently. Putting together the pieces of the puzzle, there is no other answer more suitable than what I would say ‘Love’. Heard of the fact that people go miles for Love and turns out it is in fact the truth.

Oh! I forgot to tell you, my school pals decided on a soiree, yes, I am enthralled about meeting them. Enthused about sharing with them the stories about the past years we were separated. But one thing that matters to me is him again. I am sure if this rendezvous we are planning comes into his knowledge, through thick and thin he would try to bring his presence there, for he can have a sight of me. When we were all together in the past, I remember the smile, stare and glances he showered secretly at me, hidden from others.
Only if he knew.

He just couldn’t keep his eyes off me I would say though normally these kinds of doings cause vexation but the truth is I have grown to like the way he looks at me, the warmth of his affection could be felt just from his stare.And I am perplexed by the muse about the wonders his mere touch or his lips could do.

The thought of him excites me yet petrifies me because I still can’t accept the one fact Diary, the one fact that I have fallen for him too.

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Loving Myself

Loneliness was something everyone gifted me.

The gift which I dreaded the most.

I used to lament a lot.

But it turns out it is a gift not everyone can get.

I discern now it is the path to silence.

And silence is the language of the Souls.

I am ecstatic realising myself after all.

Madly in Love

My thoughts became ineluctable.

It started to seem endless.

I lost myself,

    in the depths of insanity

and I found comfort in the madness.

  The madness that defined only you.

They call me crazy, yes I concur

    I concur,

   I  am crazy in love with you.

A Song By Hearts

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“Look deep into nature, and then you will understand everything better.”

Someone was yelling his throat out. My head was pounding hard from inside. I guess it took a minute or two to come back to my senses. It was so difficult for my eyes to adjust to the light. Every cell of my body was screaming in agony. Things started to exacerbate. It took me a while to figure out what was happening but it was too late. My eyes started to see things or I guess it felt more like a death wish. Lying down the sky was red with blood. Inside the metro, the light was flickering and blurriness covered my eyes.

    The yellow fingers of the sun brushed my hair . I could hear the soft bristle of leaves when cold air caressed them. The birds were chirping beautiful tunes and the waves kept kissing the shore. Crabs slowly paced enjoying the pure unmitigated beauty. I turned my face and saw a young girl with her blond hair tied to a pony jingling sideways, smiling. Her nice little sweet voice and her shrieking laughter started ringing inside my ears. I couldn’t make out what she was saying. I tried hard.
But my whole body ached. Along with her, I saw a lady beautiful as the young girl grabbed and tickled her and she said something to the young girl, pointing at me.
She sidled towards me with both her arms apart saying something, this time I tried harder, even though my body restricted me I didn’t care. It was really difficult, that tears streamed from my eyes. Tears of happiness shadowed by pain. And I heard two words”Pa..Pa, I love you”. My heart was pounding harder and I felt like puking. Tears strolled down my cheeks. For a moment I felt satiated. She looked so beautiful and I wanted to grab her with both my arms hug her to the fullest and say those beautiful words to her. I tried to move my lips slowly but they were wet with blood
and numb. I stammered and my voice quavered to say “I ….lo…love….u.too,ho…ney”.
But it was too late.
Fell into an unprecedented peace and it never came out.

After 20 years later on 22/ 7/2014
a pulchritudinous young lady stood in
front of the tomb looking at it bereaved with a palpable feeling of poignance.
She stood for a while with no tears and left by placing a bouquet and a smile appeared on her face.

The tomb said:
In loving memory of
Jacob Smith
Died on 22/7/1994
Aged 33 years
A breeze brushed past her and she heard
‘I love you, honey’.
Nature smiled.
At that moment a regrettable  story
found its way out. And the clouds cried.
A rain of love and happiness.

Love is Blind

Untold Love Tale

He was my childhood friend, we didn’t talk much but our eyes spoke a lot. We never got a chance to speak with our voices and we never got to exchange our names let alone our feelings for each other. I don’t know where he is at present or he doesn’t know where I’m. But I am sure the intense fervency that came to life when we were close still exists in the distance stifling us, no matter how far apart we are or nigh maybe, who knows. Let fate decide.

“Innocence”

In the restaurant,

he stared at me,

leisurely his eyes glowed at my lips.

He slowly swayed towards me
swallowing and craving
under his excitement.

I could see the nervousness in
his eyes, he asked

“Will ya gi me the…ta candy?”,
seeing me smile, the toddler
screamed back to his mum,
“I wan..na. cany, mummy.”,
his lisp just made my day.

Unsated

Even when the trophies
marked the success in my
life, they were not the
fruit of my dreams.

Hitched to Love

“Grandpa, how many times have you fallen in love?”

“A number of times you can’t even count for kid.”

“Really! and did grandma knew about this?.”

The boy was left without an answer but a simper.

‘Yes ’cause she was the only one I have fallen for’, he pondered while glowing at her picture.

Nirvana

This world is more than just what you see, take a moment to seek the essence of real love and you will attain utter blissfulness,

Just perceive.

FALLEN

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It was all fake at first.

But somehow we fell for

the ones behind the mask

I found her and she found me.

The mistakes turned into

something magical.

Only the cupid didn’t have to use

its arrows.

But it was truly magical.

A Small Note

“If you are reading this, this is my answer and I regret not saying it you, I love you, it has always been and always will be  ” she wrote with the hope that he will read for she knew she didn’t have much time left.

Dream

He ran fast.
The crowd applauded.
His only focus was the ribbon
at the end.In a few minutes
he broke off the ribbon.
Cheers could be heard and
his name was called out.

Through the window
while sitting on his wheelchair
he saw his dream come true.
Though he was limited by
his legs,his imaginations had
no limitations.

Ageless Love

One was 80.
The other 75.
Their toothless smooches
and shivering cwtches
made them blush again.
And they loved each other
like they never aged.

A Grave Mistake

Many years gone by
Everything changed
Memories got erased
past became fragile
like my heart.

Following my passion
bought me temporary
blithe but I never
took the time to realize
the truth.

The truth, I met so late
The truth about the things
I had left behind
The truth about their
love,care, affection
which I forgot,
at present
they disenchant me .

And,I lost my way
I lost all the good within
In the future,I will
never have a tranquil
mind because of what
I have done.

Now coming back
after twenty years
I am trying to find my way
but I realize where I
had gone wrong but
past cannot be changed.

The shoddy home
with their fragrance
made me weep and
my tears wet the
yellowed pages of
their diary.

It’s biblichor filled the
room and words long
written pierced me
hard.It said
We love you,
sweetheart.

But I was too late.